. Ir. Dheka Esti Rahayu: September 2010

Ir. Dheka Esti Rahayu

ditujukan untuk semua para pembaca yang selalu mengapresiasikan dirinya dalam cinta

PELANGI SENJAKU

dia indah .. begitu indah, amazing tuk dipandang, yang selalu buat diriku terpaku, terdiam sesaat. dia menjadi suatu pesona dalam hidupku, raganya bagai suatu impian tuk setiap orang.

tapi lakunya .. sangat membelakangi raganya. pelangi itu terus memberi dam memberiku sebuah harapan baru, dia terangi hariku, dan indahkan duniaku,

tapi dalam sekejap dia menghilang begitu saja, redupkan setiap anganku, dia pergi dengan kenistaannya, merobohkan ceriaku, dia pergi, menjauh dariku, tanpa mauku..

akankah pelangi itu kan datang lagi? untukku, seperti dulu, saat dia warnai hari-hariku ..


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dan ku pun sempat teringat saat dia membuatku meneteskan air mata , terasa bagai tersayat belati amarahnya,

namun apa dayaku, aku ta bisa meninggalkannya, aku ingin tatap melihatnya, lagi .. tanpa ingin beranjak dari tempat peristirahatan terakhirku.

ku inngin tetap melihay senyum bahagianya, meski ku tau, enja pun akan tertutup malam, langit yang gelap menyelimuti pelangi senjaku.

tapi ku masih kan tetap dan terus berharap, ketika hujan itu meredakan diri, aku masi kan tetap bisa melihat pelangi senjaku, yang tersenyum kearahku..




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andai saja saat-saat dimana aku masih bisa merasakan sejuknya udara pagi,semerbaknya wangi bunga, dan hangatnya terik mentari.

dan saat aku masih bisa melihat dan menyentuh pelangu itu, dapat teerulang lagi. karena aku kiki sangatlah sepi, bagai berada dirung hampa.

tapi, setidaknya, aku masih bisa bahagia, karena aku masih bisa melihat pelangi senjaku tersenyum bahagia, walau ta seperti dulu.

dan kini aku cukup bahagia, melihatnya dari surga-Mu Tuhan ..





.. LOVE STORY ..

We were both young when I first saw you
I closed my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh
Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
But you were my everything to me
I was begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo, save me
I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

.. PERFECT ..

Make dad look at me think back and talk to me

Did i grow up according to plan

And do you think im wasting my time doin things i wanna do

But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now i try hard to make it

I just wanna make you proud

Im never gonna be good enough for you

cant pretend that im alright

and you cant change me


Cause you lost it all

Nothin lasts forever

Im sorry, i cant be perfect

Now its just too late

And we cant go back

Im sorry, i cant be perfect


I try not to think about the pain i feel inside

Did you know you used to be my hero

All the days you spent with me now seem so far away

And it feels like you dont care anymore


And now i try hard to make it

I just wanna make you proud

Im never gonna be good enough for you

cant stand another fight

and nothings alright


Cause we lost it all nothing lasts forever

Im sorry, i cant be perfect

Now its just too late and we cant go back

Im sorry, i cant be perfect


Nothings gonna change the things that you said

Nothings gonna make this right again

Please dont turn your back i cant believe its hard just to talk to you

But you dont understand


Cause we lost it all nothing lasts forever

Im sorry, i cant be perfect

Now its just too late and we cant go back

Im sorry, i cant be perfect

(x2)

.. I MISS YOU ..

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare

the shadow in the background of the morgue

the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley

we can live like Jack and Sally if we want

where you can always find me

we'll have Halloween on Christmas

and in the night we'll wish this never ends

we'll wish this never ends

(I miss you, miss you)

(I miss you, miss you)


Where are you and I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

this sick strange darkness

comes creeping on so haunting every time

and as I stared I counted

webs from all the spiders

catching things and eating their insides

like indecision to call you

and hear your voice of treason

will you come home and stop this pain tonight

stop this pain tonight


*Don't waste your time on me you're already

the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)

don't waste your time on me you're already

the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)


Don't waste your time on me you're already

the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)

don't waste your time on me you're already

the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)


Don't waste your time on me you're already

the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)

don't waste your time on me you're already

the voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)


(I miss you, miss you)

(I miss you, miss you)

(I miss you, miss you)

(I miss you, miss you)

Tanpa Rasa oleh: Cokelat




Aku tak rasa lagi hilang akan dirimu
Aku tak rasa lagi hampa tanpa dirimu
Aku telah biasa untuk melepaskannya
Aku sudah biasa untuk tanpa dirinya

Semua yang telah terjadi biarlah terjadi

Semua yang kan terjadi biarkan menjadi
Aku telah biasa untuk hadapi semua
Aku sudah biasa hadapi segalanya

Tak ada lagi sedih untuk kehilanganmu

Tak ada lagi tangis untuk dirimu
Tak akan ada benci kepadamu
Semua tentang dirimu semua telah berlalu

Aku tak rasa lagi hilang akan dirimu

Aku tak rasa lagi hampa tanpa dirimu
Aku telah biasa untuk melepaskannya
Aku sudah biasa untuk tanpa dirinya

Tak ada lagi sedih untuk kehilanganmu

Tak ada lagi tangis untuk dirimu
Tak akan ada benci kepadamu
Semua tentang dirimu semua telah berlalu

Tak ada lagi sedih untuk kehilanganmu

Tak ada lagi tangis untuk dirimu
Tak akan ada benci kepadamu
Semua tentang dirimu semua telah berlalu

.. PERCUMA ..

malam ini hujan turun lagi
tetes demi tetes yang tertuang
dalam dinginnya hawa malam
menambah kegalauan hati..
dentingnya menyadarkan ku
akan makna "percuma"
semakin dalam ku maknai kata itu
semakin menyiksa nuraniku
jauh didalam relung ini
sesungguhnya masih ingin menyayangimu
memiliki rasa indah
yang pernah tercipta untukmu
tapi aku hanyakah aku
manusia yang ta bisa merubah garis tanganku
kini ku maknai
"percuma jika aku masih mencintaimu"
18082010

... STRONGGIRL ...

malam kian melarut
keheningan pun menghiasi penatnya malam ini
ku coba langkahkan kaki,
ku pijaki anak tangga satu per satu,
meski kaki rintih sebenarnya
ku tatapbintang-bintang malam itu
banyak..
dan begitu indah
perlahan ku pejamkan mataku
dan
kurasakan dinginnya
hembusan angin malam ini
bintang ..
dunia kini mulai berbalik,
semua-mua yang berpijak
hanya sebagai ilusi sesaat,
kini ku mengerti,
mengapa mereka bersandar

...

welcome to the new world